January 5, 1965
My project broke! I fixed it with Scotch tape, though. Mr. W didn’t say anything about it. I love that man! (Not “love” in the romance but adoration sense.) Paul McCartney is married! He married Jane Asher. I’m kind of sad, but glad it wasn’t George. I hope they’re happy. Also they have to pay such high taxes on the money they earned here, they said they’re not coming back! I’m unhappy - now I’ll never meet them!
January 5, 2023
Question: Why did it matter to me that my celebrity crush not be married?
Answer: I had very strong feelings about marital infidelity, based on my family circumstances. I loved my smart, funny, charming father. Unfortunately, he cheated on my mother at least four times during their 30-year marriage, beginning a year after the wedding. That night when the Young People’s Fellowship watched the Beatles on Ed Sullivan, some of my friends were swooning over John Lennon. I judged them. I judged every fan who didn’t stop crushing on Paul after he married Jane Asher. As soon as I found out a celebrity I liked had a serious girlfriend, I lost interest. My fantasies could not include being a homewrecker.
I consider it a sign of maturity that I have had a crush on a married actor since 2015. His name is Shah Rukh Khan, and I don’t mind sharing him with his millions of fans, because it’s just a crush. Celebrity crushes are harmless fun. They aren’t cheating. (Unless you start to lose interest in your actual partner because they aren’t your crush.) My husband of 52 years is not Shah Rukh Khan, but he has many other fine qualities.