August 9

If I don’t love Juan, if I won’t love Raul, I know I love Mexico.

1965

My day off today. I went home with Freckles in Norfolk. I learned how to play Fan Tan and went swimming in Tobey Lake. I love her family. They have 4 girls and 3 boys. I watched “Man from Uncle”, too.

1966 (Mexico)

Went to La Merced. Bought:

Attache case for Bob
Billfold for Dad
Doll for Suzanne
Small jewelry box for Sharon
Change purse for Kathy

Now I have just $2.54 in US money left. 

I’m still confused about Juan and Raul. Raul was home when I came back and read more poems to me. And while he was reading, I just wanted to throw my arms about him.

Then Juan came home, and we talked for a long time, and kissed much. When he left, he REALLY kissed me, and kept saying he loves me. Does he?

Two days left. I don’t want to leave. If I don’t love Juan, if I don’t love Raul, I know I love Mexico.

Comment 2023

I have to smile at “Doll for Suzanne”. She asked me for a cute Mexican boy, so I brought her one she could keep in her purse.

1985

I should get a birthday card for Dad today. It feels more and more like an obligation every year. I wonder sometimes if he thinks about me or Kiddo at all. He never talks about his feelings, though that doesn’t mean he doesn’t have any. Mom being here makes it harder for him to visit. 

Actually, I’m not sure if I want to see him. It makes me uncomfortable. Knowing anything about what he is doing makes me feel dishonest, since I have to withhold it from Mom. Does Kiddo need a grandfather? Does Dad need his grandchildren? Mom and Dad are so different. She revels in her grandchildren. They seem to make Dad feel old, uneasy, and even guilty.

Boy, I hope I don’t get divorced! I hope I never even want to!

Time for a shower…

1988

Great July! The visit with Bob and his family was wonderful. Kiddo and Niece had an especially close time.

2011 (Facebook)

Surreal moment. Visiting Bob, watching a DVD of my his blues band; he's wearing the same Hawaiian shirt in the DVD and in real life. Oh, Bob.

2023

Hello from Covidia! My dear husband has tested positive for the third time since 2020, and so we are both quarantined. He’s asymptomatic; this variation is vewy, vewy sneaky! 

2024

This year was my turn, just last month. It gets sneakier all the time.

My latest knitting:

It's been slow going since I pledged to just do one project at the time. The bin needs to be full in time for the holiday craft fair.

Oops! I forgot my finally-finished cotton shawl.

Also, I wrote this in the last few days:

My work in the 1980s was a theory-free zone