August 6

Sometimes just reading this stuff wears me out.

1965

My day off today. I went home with Freckles in Norfolk. I learned how to play Fan Tan and went swimming in Tobey Lake. I love her family. They have 4 girls and 3 boys. I watched “Man from Uncle”, too.

1966 (Mexico)

Went to La Merced. Bought:

Attache case for Bob

Billfold for Dad

Doll for Suzanne

Small jewelry box for Sharon

Change purse for Kathy

Now I have just $2.54 in US money left. 

I’m still confused about Juan and Raul. Raul was home when I came back and read more poems to me. And while he was reading, I just wanted to throw my arms about him.

Then Juan came home, and we talked for a long time, and kissed much. When he left, he REALLY kissed me, and kept saying he loves me. Does he?

Two days left. I don’t want to leave. If I don’t love Juan, if I don’t love Raul, I know I love Mexico.

Comment 2023

I have to smile at “Doll for Suzanne”. She asked me for a cute Mexican boy, so I brought her one she could keep in her purse.

1985

I should get a birthday card for Dad today. It feels more and more like an obligation every year. I wonder sometimes if he thinks about me or Kiddo at all. He never talks about his feelings, though that doesn’t mean he doesn’t have any. Mom being here makes it harder for him to visit. 

Actually, I’m not sure if I want to see him. It makes me uncomfortable. Knowing anything about what he is doing makes me feel dishonest, since I have to withhold it from Mom. Does Kiddo need a grandfather? Does Dad need his grandchildren? Mom and Dad are so different. She revels in her grandchildren. They seem to make Dad feel old, uneasy, and even guilty.

Boy, I hope I don’t get divorced! I hope I never even want to!

Time for a shower…

1988

Great July! The visit with Bob and his family was wonderful. Kiddo and Niece had an especially close time.

2023

Hello from Covidia! My dear husband has tested positive for the third time since 2020, and so we are both quarantined. He’s asymptomatic; this variation is vewy, vewy sneaky! 

2024

My friend Shannon asked on yesterday’s post, “…do you enjoy the constant of recording the present as much as the going back with a wider perspective?” Of course, each is different. Looking back is such a revelation, sometimes. It’s fun when something that happened forty or fifty years ago rhymes (or contrasts!) with my present. FWIW, I also check my Facebook memories every morning. I can’t be the only one.

Recording the present is different, when I do it here. I am aware that I have an audience, which was not true for most of the older entries, and my comments. I try not to let that influence what I write about my day, but it turns out that’s impossible. I know you are all out there, even when you don’t comment. (Which is most of the time.)

Here’s a question for whoever is reading this: Some of my readers know me IRL; most don’t. Why are you reading? Is there anything I could do to make this more interesting, more worth your time?

L: More interesting me; R: Actual me.

Thank you for your time and your attention!