April 16, 2023

My inner dialog... and more ellipses..

April 16, 1965

Happy Saturday! (What's so happy about it?)

I feel great today. (You ought to - you didn't do any work.)

I bought the cutest little madras hat for $1.49 at Grants. (Yeah - and it was supposed to be an Easter hat.)

I baked brownies and bread and colored the Easter eggs. (And sat on your chair all day.)

Well, now to bed. (Aren't you tired of going to bed all day?)

April 16, 1973

And now I am in California. It is harder to take than the time change. These impossible distances! Saw Nebraska today, and the Rockies. I hope I get some decent pictures. Met Aunt Lois and Uncle Russ, who seems to be a neat person..my third uncle in the “air” business…how strange. Now he works for the phone company.)

And I met my grandparents…how old they look… and how fragile. Will Mom and Dad ever be that way? Yet 80 years is a long time…they are old. They were in their sixties when I last saw them. I suddenly feel how much I have missed in not seeing them for twenty years. They are close to me, yet I hardly know them. 

Mom is getting on my nerves…she babbles a lot. Thank God that lady sat next to her on the flight today and kept her out of my hair. Aunt Grace and Carol and Lois and even Grandmother seem so strong. And Mom is so weak, and silly at times, and self-centered. Her back, her pain, her unhappy life…I see the ennui cross their faces as they listen to her… Argh.

April 16, 2006

And to think this was 30 years before I even heard the phrase "inner dialogue".

April 16, 2023

Oh, the travails of an introvert traveling with an extrovert.